Taking a Coffee Break

 Entering into that cafe again filled my mind with memories like butterflies taking up the sky with their colorful flutters. That time of being stressed, overwhelmed, uncertain and anxious reentered that space for a bit. Spring rain, and cloudy weather interspersed with sunshine, blooms and later sunsets was once that time period, just roughly and a year in a half ago. 

When I would take a coffee break halfway through my work or going there for a bit before my work had helped since it was anxiety inducing, soul sucking and a small workplace. Those days, I felt like I was just getting by and surviving amidst the anxiety from a coworker, and stress and uncertainty and overwhelm with my master's program. 

That little cafe- with its coffee, treats (Croissants and Cheese Danish being my favorite) and ambiance was a nice break away from the storm. One time I went there before work, and instead of doing my assignments and writing, I desperately wanted to study language and do my own endeavors that felt more mentally relaxing and freeing. That time was a mental hurdle, to keep going, striving, and persevering.

Visiting there with my sister and nephew recently was special. It brought back that hard time, but also all the blessings- of having my sister as my dear friend and her support, all the graces and blessings I've received, and all the way God has helped me and has continued to unfold since then. This journey I've been on has had meaning and purpose. It makes more sense now, to be where I am now, as a teacher, working with students and really listening to the God given desire and gift I had once put off to the side.