My Path Towards Now

 I can't help but think back to the beginning 2014. It was my last semester before I transferred to University and there were a lot of changes and discernments happening. I knew where I would be going to school and fulfilling my English degree (though that would change later), yet I was uncovering the discernments that naturally happen as a student with what to do with that degree, what job or career path will it lead me to, and would I be a fit or good at that? 

These were one of the main questions that was circulating in my head come that last semester of Junior College and feeling ever ready for a change in scenery, new contacts and friends, as well as more independence in that I wouldn't know anybody where I was going next. 

March 2014, Student Government 'March in March' walk

I knew English was a large interest and passion of mine. Some peers and friends knowing that about me asked me to edit and look over some their essays. I was a tutor at an after school educational program  aiding young learners. I was thoroughly enjoying my literature class where we read, wrote and discussed women's literature, one of them being a beloved favorite, Little Women by Louisa May Alcott. 

But there was something new for me which was pursuing and studying Chinese. It was a side hobby and one that I became passionate about to learn and use, and even Student Government friends and contacts would see me studying and engrossed in this new language. Language and culture had started developing in interest for me as I had befriended or met people from various places and backgrounds at school; either hearing their native language spoken in passing or trying out their cuisine and favorite food was eye opening into cultures I had never considered, delved into or really known. 

With regards to my pursuing English, I had briefly thought about becoming a librarian. I didn't know much about it or the different pathways, but saw it as a potential option (though not my only one) if I were to studying and receive a degree in English. I remember asking a librarian on the school campus a brief question and I think I learned from them that you would need to get a Masters. The thought of it didn't last very long, but I do remember researching a bit more on my own. That spring even, my sisters, parents and family friends of ours saw the play, 'The Music Man', and there is a character called 'Marian the Librarian'. I think we saw that play in the idea of a field of study/career I had, and also just for the fun of it. 

A few weeks ago, I was going through old prayer journals, and I came across me mentioning being a librarian from that year, but not too sure of it. Looking through that particular notebook brought back so many various memories from friends and contacts at that time and dilemmas, more interior growth, one of my sweet sisters moving back home from college, work and its own struggles, and desires to meet great friends and large pursuits once I transferred. 

I can't help but smile and ponder about it all, and see all the shifts, changes and journeys these past few years! And to know that I will be starting a Masters in Library Science this month is surreal, amazing, exciting, nerve wracking, and hopeful all at the same time.