An Inner Light

 Today. I feel like I need to write it out because it has been a wonderful transition from the past few days of feeling low in spirits, and heavy feelings inside. I woke up early today, planning to see the sky just before sunrise and go to early Mass. I needed to start the day out right, on a light and joyful note. 

Going to Mass so early in the morning brought me back to Fall and Winter days, the cold, dark, crisp and eerily foggy mornings. Sometimes it would feel like the short days, and dark drawl would never end. Waking up this morning felt different, the sky was starting to lighten and the sun was away from the clouds. There was a pleasantness to it all, and suddenly my heart felt lighter. I woke up from a vivid and interesting dream, and part of what I remember had to do with me trying to speak Arabic.

 I thought and prayed to St. Anthony of Padua before I went to bed, having me wake up rested for early Mass, and sure enough I did. Even though my skin felt tight, and my eyes were puffy from yesterday, I felt ready for the day. I got to Mass a few minutes after it started, and later on I looked up and saw the stain glass image of St. Anthony of Padua to my upper left, and I was grateful he helped me wake up this morning.

I read the beautiful and peaceful excerpt of the Magnificat from St. Mother Teresa. And upon opening my old new notebook for work, I came across the prayer from her that I wrote down in that notebook a couple of years ago, written in Albanian and translated into English. It goes like, 'Life is one opportunity, benefit from it...life is a challenge, face it...life is sorrow, overcome it...life is love, enjoy it.' I remember I was interested in learning Albanian, but only for a few days! ha I'm currently reading her book of letters and about her spiritual darkness, 'Come Be My Light'.  I had to get a coffee after Mass because I was starting to feel tired, and sleepy. A busy Starbucks in the early morning, but nice to have something hot and sweet before work. 

And working on my assignment for my class, and creating a infographic was fun, but it took a while. Making it look a certain way with the text, colors, graphics I find creative and interesting. 

Overall, I feel that today has brought a new sense, a deeper and brighter light. After Mass I was thinking, nothing really matters, as long as I'm close to Jesus, that's all that matters in the end.