Trusting in Christ the King

 Immersed in my schedule, routine, essentially little world or bubble- that's what it felt like recently when I went to my niece and nephew's birthday party. It was great to see family and eat good pizza and delicious birthday cake- but something felt a little unsettling. Maybe it was the busy, loud environment, or the transition from one environment (and transitions I'm not normally good at with groups.) to another. 

I can feel so caught up in my own thing- and with a big family, and so much going on and taking place, it's easy to feel a sense of isolation- how do I, how do we fit into each other's lives when it all looks so different? I no longer share similar stories with my siblings and no longer living at home together, so perhaps that's the distance it can feel.

It could also be that I'm in this phase of figuring things out, 'transitioning' in my mind about what the future will hold, the last remainder for my MLIS program and how thing will look like, appears daunting to me. I guess just the unknown can make me fearful and not necessarily like I'm not excited, but it can feel like a blank slate that I can't relate to. 

I'm very much in the present, so it's hard to fully prepare and envision what things will look like. I just don't know. And that's okay, and it tells me that I need to continue to give it to God and trust. As the verse says, 'There is no fear in love.' (1 John 4:18) And why should I worry, be fearful or have any of those feeling that don't come from God? 

Today is a perfect feast day, a wonderful and beautiful reminder of God's power and provision- Jesus Christ our savior and King- Christ the King. I love this solemnity, this time of year- right before the end of this liturgical year and on to a new one, right before the start of Advent (one of my favorite liturgical seasons.) 

There is so much beauty, peace, stillness, joy and treasure to behold with the coming and anticipation of baby Jesus entering into the world. How much I need this reassurance, this reminder when times feel more challenging and harder, suffering simply because I'm not trusting or not look at the right place. 

One of my favorite images of Christ the King