Boaz

 Last night, I looked back and read some of my former prayer journals. It depicted what I was thinking, experiencing, and going through. All of the challenges, sufferings, pains, unknowns and insights. And I would say it didn't just bring back strong memories but also some nostalgia I would say. I think it showcases that particular time and season- the growing pains and learning curves but also the real blessings in the moment and spiritual growth. 

One of my prayer entries, I quoted somewhere about praying for your future husband, and finding 'your Boaz'. I loved the quote and insight, so I wrote it down. The date was yesterday's date- 11/21 and I couldn't help but some see some cross over.

"Waiting for your Boaz means learning to love yourself, right where you are. Waiting for your Boaz means letting God form you into a modern-day Ruth who knows who she is in Christ...Waiting for your Boaz means preparation, it's time to prepare for wifehood and pray for your future husband and yourself."

*Boaz means strength is within him

In the evening, I was reading a book about women in the bible. The story I'm currently on is about Rahab who is a harlot but eventually marries Salmon and becomes the mother of Boaz. I thought that was interesting timing noticing that.

Yesterday morning, I wasn't so much in conversation but rather was bombarded about my personal dating life by a mere acquaintance after Mass. Long, drawn out storytelling to get to a specific point- figuring out why I'm (still) single or when I'll have children and trying to set me up with poor matches just for a charity case. It can be disheartening, frustrating, annoying, and even hurtful. Somehow, God's graces led me not to feel too much of any of those discouraging feelings. I trust He knows what He is doing and in God's unique and perfect design for my life, though I have to say somedays I experience these graces stronger than others. 

Rereading that quote last night reassured me of all the good reminders I needed- to let God form you, to love yourself and know yourself. Ultimately, cultivating joy in your life through the good and bad. The anchor of my life and heart should be in Him, and He continues to guide.