Full Circle

 I parked in the same spot I did many months ago. It felt almost strange, but then again made sense for why I was here. The same school I came to for part of my internship last Fall for the middle school book club, was the school I had my interview yesterday. It was throughout that time that I felt a sense of loss, a depth of sadness, pain even. It nearly felt like I could be on the brink of tears in my sorrow throughout that time, always looking back of what once was, what I found joy and peace (working with students) in left me for a loss of words most days for the path that I was on, as things started to become more real and clear.

I feel I have come full circle and am proud of myself for this journey. It hasn't been anything close to easy or simple, but messy, impatient, struggles, doubt and deep questioning. Trying to be open to what and where God is leading me as well as where I feel most called to deep down, even admitting of it doesn't relate back to my Masters.

 I would be amiss to say I've been hesitant and dare I say even fearful of others' opinions at times, or criticisms that almost feel up for display that could lack genuine questions going deeper into my journey, my prayer, my discernment these past months and years and where it has lead up till now.  However, coming out of the interview, I felt peace, confidence and even joy. Though not knowing the answer, I felt like I was in the right place and God blessed my efforts. I felt like I was home, and listening to these inner desires of where I feel called to be, and ultimately trusting God for what he has planned.