Same Place But Not

 There's nothing like being brought back to your past in an instant. It's not a trigger, but rather a raw and interesting time that only God could do, to see where you have been and where you have come. It's rather a flashback, a 'Godcidence', and I can't help but smile. 

Walking past or inside that library at the school, I want to look and tell my past self some encouraging things. About what the future will look like, and it will all come full circle and make sense and be worth the growth. My heart was revealing and leaking out this pain, and bitterness like a punctured water balloon. Not only was it leaking, but it was shrinking in passion, interest and confidence of the next steps. 

I want and currently am focusing on God's ways and promises, and trust in that, since that was all I could cling to at the time. 

I was there, at a table helping students and remembering almost a year ago of being here for my internship. It feels almost like it happened last week. God's ways are and can be mysterious and yet perfectly make sense.

Nothing beats God's surprises, and the ways in which he works, and even makes us smile and laugh in between. I'm so grateful for where I am right now.