I was driving to my test, and the thought of the date, April 15th came to mind. The date was actually April 16th as I was driving, but April 15th was looming over my head. Exactly a year ago on that day, I submitted and was working vigorously to finish my Masters program e-portfolio.
It was a joyous day when I woke up the next day knowing it was all done, and I completed this humongous task even while feeling anxious, depressed, off with myself and nauseous at times, God, St. Joseph gave me all the strength and graces to finish strong and do it, despite the temptations at times to give up completely.
April 16th felt like a light, a burden no longer carrying hard and heavy on my shoulders. It felt utterly surreal. On April 16th this year, I felt like I had come full circle, as I was taking a math exam that I had taken nearly 7 in a half years earlier and attempted to study and take again more than once throughout the years.
It's been a goal of mine for a long while to complete and pass this test that sometimes feels like it becomes less blurry in the background and takes its spot in the forefront. That's what it felt like this time. It was the timing of it all, a year apart from fishing my big project, and now on to this one, this path, mission. It all was God's timing, and I felt proud of myself- look how far I've come, look what this school year has showed and taught me. Look at what God is doing as I was walking in the strong and vibrant spring sunshine, to find the testing center. It's in God's hands.
Love this "looking forward, looking back" type of post! Always so interesting to see where we were and how far we have come. Love that notion you wrote - look at what God is doing.
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