Write Your Story

 "I'm an empty page, I'm an open book, write your story on my heart"

As I was listening to this upbeat, and encouraging song by Francesca Battistelli, all the memories came back to me from that August evening. It was the final cusp of my dear sister Susie's time before she would move out and transition to a new area, a new job, a whole new life ahead!

 I made a video for her with photos from the past 6 and a half years of our time and memories together with music, and this was one of the songs. Here are some of the other beautiful lyrics: "Author of my hope, maker of the stars, let me be your work of art... My life, I know it's never been mine, so do whatever you like, I don't know what your plan is, but I know it's good."

How rich, joyful and beautiful these lyrics are, an openness, a trustful heart, a restful heart. I think that's what my sweet sister had, an open heart before she moved, and a joyful and restful heart of God's plans, timing and what He would do next. I could sense it, and I can remember it now. My heart looked quite different at that time. I felt some sorrow, overwhelming sense of the unknown, not knowing how daily life would like without a sister around, not sure what my path would like, what would be next for me?

 I had many doubts, and I took it day by day, settling into a new of life. This song spoke of an emptying of sense, of being open, yet things felt empty around me, but it was surely a way for God to find me more willing to accept the hardships and crosses He was giving me at that time.

How different I feel now, a year in a half later. So much has happened, and transitioned into a new mold, a new season. And there have been different seasons in between since I made that video for Susie. I feel more like what the lyrics say, "an empty page, I'm an open book.... come on and make your mark." More as in invitation, a sense of being, belonging and resting in Him more and more. 

This symbolism of writing and open pages relates to a song I have had on repeat as of recently, Natasha Bedingfield's 'Unwritten'. I love this song. I love it while I'm running, driving or just thinking and reading. Those lyrics have a similar openness to life and what's ahead, it has a positive tune. It never gets old. Those lyrics my dear sister wrote in one of my notebooks for my birthday. That birthday, I needed those reassuring and beautiful lyrics since that was a hard and trying year, beautiful but stretching me, and growing my faith. 

I remember that song the summer I took the English CBEST, and it felt so empowering, inspired after I took that test after studying and I could just run and let all my creative energy out. I still think of that song when it comes to writing, whether it be journaling, notes, creative writing, it's a force that breathes inspiration and energy in. I think about it as I'm now writing my own story, a creative one.

 "I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned... the rest is till unwritten".