Hidden Blessings

 It felt like a busy week, at times more so due to being in my head. It often felt like a lot of rushing around and hard to fully sit, appreciate, and soak it all in, the present moment I mean. Ash Wednesday Mass was very nice, packed full, and a great reminder on how to start and live out this liturgical season. I had ashes on my head all day and some students asked about it and it was an opportunity to mention I'm Catholic and what the black dust on my forehead actually was. It first felt a little embarrassing, but then I became proud and encouraged to be a witness and share my faith in this way. 

Getting up early for Mass was difficult somedays, it was dark, cloudy on some. Or I just felt a bit tired or burnout from the week, again that stillness and presence of God, inspiration felt it was waning on some days. On some I felt more jovial, full of spirit, others I was dragging myself interiorly to pull through and get through the hours. Putting off assignments I could do later for my classes, wanting more time for reading, introspection, reflection. I was feeling like I needed a break from something, from a busyness mentality and just rest. Oh, so many blessings and graces that can be easily forgotten, not noticed or not appreciated.

Silence helps with this. It helps with being present, staying focused, prayer, attention, gratitude. It clears my mind like a spring well and creates pieces of open opportunity, innovation and inspiration. Not feeling the need for so much screen time, external noise. Gentle music when I read or wind down like a soft breeze. My mom and dad always listening to me talk, share about my day. Laugh with them, share things with them and gain help and advice from them. I share friendship and trust with them, such gifts. I was especially comforted and supported after a rough day yesterday.

Swimming with my mom and feeling pretty good in terms of shape. The water was cooler, we were able to share a lane again. I realized how much I enjoy running, with all of its variety.  Adoration, always peaceful, putting forth all concerns, worries, uncertainties at the Lord's feet. He knows. He understands. The best friend, always encouraging and loving. Messages from my sisters, always so good and enjoyable to hear from, easily makes my day. 

What a week! It can easily feel like a blur, but noticing the pieces, the little moments make it beautiful. Now I can rest.