Evening Light

 Seeing the Christmas trees, the greenery, the wreaths set upon the premises of the church, it made me reflect. It was so peaceful, with adoration, dim lights and it made me feel right at home. It really feels like Christmas now, with all the decorations, and entering more into this blessed and holy liturgical season. 

It made me reflect upon these past couple of years, and really sense that God brought me here, to this particular church, this community. He has led me here and that there's a plan, a purpose, a mission involved. In a dark, isolated and hard season, I felt brought here, where there was light, and I would be spiritually fed more so. It's already been 3 years, and seeing the seasons pass, unfold, its beautiful to be in this almost Christmas season. I was reflecting upon this while waiting in the confession line that evening. 

Also, just thinking, processing these past months especially and wrapping my head around it all. It all feels so daunting and can get bogged down or even a little emotional, but it was therapeutic to be there in adoration and just let out all my inner emotions and let the tears fall. I could also sense the healing in confession and preparing for Christmas.  

And upon seeing a contact at church, he asked me how I am doing. And just honesty came to me, not sugar coating or giving excessive details or explanations either, but letting 'okay' suffice for me too, and that it's more than okay to reveal our true status even to ourselves in that moment. And it felt good for someone to ask that question- a simple passing question that can easily be asked as a whisper, or as a run on after hello, but to be seen and heard, that's important. 

Jesus being born into this world, with all its darkness, sin, and brokenness is more than okay with our honesty and encounters us as we are. He heals and restores to make all things new.